blossoming like a flower

I've been spending time talking to this guy. I admit, there wasn't initial attraction. I was just being friendly and accomodating as usual. Until one day, he opened up and since then, all I did was be there for him.

Tonight, I realized how he remembers things about me. How despite his busy day, he manages to at least be in touch with me. He's very hardworking and I don't know if that's good or bad in the long run. But what's really cool about what's happening is that I'm just there for him all the time. While he opens up to me, I learn to accept what he can and can't do.

I am praying for guidance. He's the one. He needs me. I need him. We co-exist.

If We Ever Meet Again...

You know that feeling when someone special has flown away. At this very moment, that person is up there.. on a plane flying somewhere and you don’t know when or if you’ll see that person again.

It’s not the best feeling when you know you are holding back your tears from falling each time you are reminded of the laughter and the great times. It’s not an easy task being the one who’s left to wait—for God knows how long.

You want to have a good time but you start to realize that good times are supposed to be shared with that person only. And not even commitment can define that. Not even loyalty or faithfulness. It could be love which combines all emotions that are undefinable. But probably, it will hurt if it is love. For love brings the sweetest of all things, both joy and pain.

It’s very rare to experience that kind of spark with one person. Like you move on for months, or so you thought. But when you see the person, the spark comes out again, like it was never lost. In fact, it became more sparkling, more warm… more bright than how it was before.

All the mixed emotions of fear that he might not come back or that he might find a home in someone else’s arms, the feeling of hope that maybe you have left a mark on that person’s life and a feeling of thrill if you’ll ever meet again.

The End

Last night marked THE END of it. After a year, my prayer was answered. I wouldn't want to go into details about what happened. But I guess, it's for the better.

Unofficially Yours?

I watched the movie "Unofficially Yours" starring Angel Locsin and John Lloyd Cruz. Somehow, I can well relate to the story since I have experienced a No Committment relationship in the past. And yes, true enough, one or the other gets hurt.

One more thing I liked about the movie is that it made me realize that relationships might not work because there is someone out there who is made just for you. Who will show you what true love is. Yes, not having committment gives you the assurance that you won't have to be responsible of your "partner's" heart. Not having a committment means being single while having someone in your life as well. But then there will come a time when all you would want is someone who can give you the assurance that he loves you.

Oh.. this post is a waste. Hate talking about this. hahahaha.

ILML.

Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

I'm not surprised, not everything lasts
I've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up, then I let myself down

I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility

And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/michael-buble-lyrics/haven_t-met-you-yet-lyrics.html ]
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

They say all's fair
In love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it right and we'll be united

And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility

And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get

Oh, you know it'll all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah, I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet
Oh, promise you, kid
To give so much more than I get

I said love, love, love, love
Love, love, love, love
(I just haven't met you yet)
Love, love, love, love
Love, love
I just haven't met you yet

http://www.elyrics.net/read/m/michael-buble-lyrics/haven_t-met-you-yet-lyrics.html

Thank You...

I knew I will break down as soon as I hop into my bed. So yeah. As I create this entry, my eyesight is getting blurry since my eyes are filled with tears.

For some reason, I listen to James Morrison's The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore, over and over again. I just feel so low today. The lyrics somehow hits me to the core. All my defenses broke down and tonight, I just want to cry myself to sleep. "I can't explain why it's not enough coz I gave it all to you" - this line simply starts the pain inside of me. I don't know why, for some reason, at the back of my head I was waiting for you to say you miss me. All these months.. I spent time waiting patiently. And yes, I said I didn't want to commit but then... Didn't you feel me? Didn't you feel that I was waiting for you? :'(

I will try my best to be ok. I will try my best to forget all the memories. This is just too tiring... I don't like crying. I don't like feeling low and sad. How come the person I least think about can cause me a great pain? :(

For You...

"The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore"



I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

I don't know why

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

From AZLyrics.com