Thursday, January 28, 2010

Peace At Last

Haaayyyyy... After 2 weeks of unexplained changes between us, we're finally OK. We were having fights and misunderstandings recently and I thought the fights would never end. I almost gave up, like the same loser that I was. It almost lead to me asking to just split up... :-( But good thing that I have a strong partner. Well, I just hate it when I feel jealous with someone. It eats me up alive and the feeling sucks. So most often than not, when I feel jealous, I just let it go because I hate the feeling. What's funny is that when I spoke to one of my exes, he told me that I was not like this during our time. According to him, I was the girl who would just ask if the rumors are true and whether or not it is, I break up with my boyfriend, go... just like what I did to him. That made me smile... the idea that I have changed a lot in this relationship makes me feel that this must be worth all that I went through in the past months like his crazy ex who argued with me over her TOR, then his bestfriend who's a girl, his other ex who was texting him saying she needs someone to talk to and all those... 8 months felt like years.

After the fights we had, I felt that I can't go on having arguments with him so might as well, end it. But after I said that, he talked to me sincerely explaining things and telling me that having fights in a relationship is still considered healthy. That it was our chance to say what we wanted to say... And it happens in every relationship. I have to understand that fighting with each other doesn't mean that we also stopped loving each other. Other than that, he admitted the fact that he once had a lot of relationships, but now that he's 29, he feels that he has gone over that stage and wanted a more stable relationship. He told me that it's the first time that his family liked his girlfriend... And that his past doesn't matter because he already learned from it and what's important would be what we are now.

Talking to another friend of mine who just got married last October with his long time girlfriend, I asked him how to deal with a relationship that's on the rocks and he said that relationships are always on the rocks. The key to surviving is a good communication. Always be open to each other. Spend time together, no cellphones to disturb the moment... and also take time away from each other to see if you miss the person when he's away or if you love him only when you see him. That was a good advice... I just realized that lately, we really don't have any chance to talk things out. I have a different shift and what happens is that by the time he gets home, I'm still asleep and by the time I wake up, he's asleep because he has to be at work around 3am. I have to go to work on a Saturday and during Sundays, we only go out for a movie or dinner and then go home as early as we can because I don't have keys and my mom would be sleeping early because most of the my family members need to go to school or work early Monday morning. During Mondays, we don't see each other because it's either he has some documents to fix or meet up with a seller for camera stuff while I do my thing like grocery or just spend time with Mom and do errands.

It was a lesson learned from the misunderstandings that we had. It was for the best. We might be fighting but that doesn't change the fact that WE STILL LOVE EACH OTHER... We still want to stay together. Funny thing is that we ended up crying because of the fight so that night, we had big red eyes. hahahahahahaha....

Sorry Hon, peace na tayo. :-)

Smile by Uncle Kracken

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler than the flip side
Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where
You send me, lets me know that it's okay
Yeah, it's okay
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone,
Somehow you come along just like
A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack
And just like that
You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
'Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile
(Oh, you make me smile)
Oh, you make me smile



Tuesday, January 19, 2010

2010 Late New Year's Resolution

Since it's 2010, a New Year, it has to be a NEW LIFE for me. 2008 was good, 2009 was better and I am hoping that 2010 would be the best. I had so much fun during 2009, let me give a brief summary of how it went:

1. I was moved to a new team and I had the chance to be with nice new teammates.

2. The bad auras in the office left.

3. I had my first application for a promotion in the office. Cool Stuff.

4. I received several awards like Perfect Attendance, Most Balanced Scorecard, Best in Gallup.

5. I was able to finish my sister's last tuition for the sem. She's graduating this year!!! Weee!!!

6. I had a reunion with elementary friends.

7. The whole family had quite a good income and perfect health.

8. Jet's operation was successful.

9. My Aunt found a man who wants to marry her.

10. I had a really nice boyfriend who treats me like a queen and gave me a lot of attention and time.

For 2010, I wanted more improvements like:

1. Less Idle: 0.5%, less Wrap: 5%, Sign-On of 90.00% and Gallup of Perfect 7.

2. More time for self-pampering: Massage, foot spa, etc.

3. Keep my diet: Half rice lots of water and a glass of milk plus wheat bread.

4. Schedule a night out with friends.

5. Save money. I already have a personal savings with BDO now.

6. Go back to school and finish College.

7. Have a lot of patience as well as improvement on being discreet with feelings.

8. Nevermind the PIG in the house. She's not worth it. ( SHE'S AN ASSHOLE!.. sorry! )

9. Go to work everyday on the expected time that I'm supposed to be at work.

10. No OVERBREAKS, LATES and EXCESSIVE log-outs like before.

11. Stay in my relationship with Mark. It maybe tough but I know for a fact that it's worth it.

12. Talk to God more often.

I am looking forward to a good year. 2010 is going to be the best year for me.

" The only way for me is UP! "

Sunday, January 17, 2010

2010

2010 is a year of changes for me. I had a lot of things that I had to decide on and a lot of people behind those decisions. I am experiencing drastic changes and all I can do was just say " Carry-on " because honestly, I only have 2 choices: Do good or make it bad. Anyway, here are some people that I feel would make this year worth the challenge and the hardwork:



Mom: A very loving person. You can call her strict or sometimes nagger but I love her so much!





Gladys: My sister. She's sometimes hard-headed but I love her. She knows everything about me. She's the best cheer dancer I've ever met in my whole life!





Jet: My brother. The baby of the family. A very smart kid. A natural! He's the mathematician of the family aside from his dad.





Mark: A real sweet guy. He knows me very well even if we've been together only for 8 months now. A talented photographer and excel genius.




Papa: A really nice guy. He loves my Mom so much. Owe him my education.


... and of course, the friends I have and will have this year. Thank God for these people. 2010 would be worth every hardwork. :-)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Honey's Gift




** He gave it to me yesterday. I got really jealous when he told me he's going to Makati and I can't come. I felt bad then. When he gave it to me, that's when I learned that it was a surprise gift. sweet! :-*