Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Happy Birthday


Happy Birthday! I didn't forget your birthday of course. I just tried to slip it off my mind because it makes me sad thinking you could've been 62 now. I'm so sorry but that was really hard to do. Not remembering your birthday and not thinking about the what if's in case you're still alive and here with us. I'm so happy with the new family that we have now, Dad. But that doesn't erase the fact that I miss you too. I just hope, you're very happy now and I'll see you again someday.

Love Lots,

Sunday, October 17, 2010


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Toney and Jackey Experience

Been to Tony and Jackey last Saturday to have my hair rebonded. That was one tough decision on my part since I don't like my hair being touched and also I easily get bored so long hours in a Salon would definitely kill me. But I was so stressed out last week that I had to do something about the way I look for reasons like 1. So I won't hate myself for the way I look now. and 2. So others would not think of me as just a nobody. Let's face it, LOOKS DOES MATTER these days. So, here are pics of my Tony and Jackey experience.

Thanks to the powerful Filipino Stylist, Daisy. She changed my life. :-) hahahaha :-)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Christmas Wishlist

CHristmas is soooooo near. I can smell it in the air. Right now, I just want to take sometime thinking about my very own wishlist.Hmmm.. something to look forward to on Christmas. :-)

1. High-tech point and shoot cam- one that I can use for my blog. I love going to places and eating food and blogigng about those of course. To help enhance the blogging experience, I super need a reliable and handy cam. Saving memories is a MUST for me.

2. My very own Notebook/laptop. I want my own Notebook, a pink one, which I can use for internet surfing anytime.

3. A new cellphone. I want a new 3g phone with wi-fi. I so love the fact that I can stay connected anytime, anywhere( well, anywhere with wi-fi access of course. )

4. A comfy pillow. I always want a new pillow every Christmas. It's because working at an early age, I sooo value lots of rest and sleep. A comfy pillow as a gift would be perfect. ( I want a big one!!! )

5. A hotel accomodation. I need that because for sure, after Christmas, I need a good vacation to start my year 2011. :-)

And So We're Back Together...

Last Friday, we were supposed to break up. I was crying and I agreed to the break up. But then he said he wanted to try it one more time. He wanted to make things work out. I agreed to what he was asking for and gave it a second shot. I don't know. Let's just hope things work out well.....

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Good Morning!

It's already Friday. I thought my day would all messed up. But hey, I got to speak to Him and he told me why he needed the space. Plus the fact that someone from the other office actually spoke to me. He seems like a British guy. Oh well, he just asked if I'm new here becasue my face is new. hahahaha... Cool. I don't know, is the powerful aura back?? hahahaha... Can't help but think about it. If I become single today because of His decision, I'm gonna be fine. :-)

It doesn't end here for me. :-D

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


Imagine that relationships are perfect: No fights. No tears. No arguments. No misunderstandings. Dream come true? But without these, there would be no sorry hugs and kisses, no saying of the sweetest words, no reasons to stay, no growth of faith in both of you. Now, how would you want it, perfect?

---sent to me by Rey, a new friend in the office...

I'm Thinking

Really, when it gets to this point already, I just want to play safe and go. But the thing is, we've been through a lot--mostly, good things. I just can't let it go just like that. I don't know but I'm still fighting for it... bahala na magmukhang tanga. I don't care. I just want him back and I want "us" in a better situation. I don't know what I should do...

....... should I just shut up?
........should I let him go?
.........should I move on?
..........should I compile our pictures and give them to him?
...........should I send him sweet notes everyday?
............should I invite him to go to places we've been to so we can reminisce the happy moments?
.............should I still love him?

Lord, help me get through this.

More Confusion

A Man asks for space. OK. When I asked for it, he said we can work things out together. I believed him. But now, I'm telling the same thing to him, he is insisting on this space and really, I feel I'm not needed. :-(

This happened to me before but Bryan and I broke up in the end... Now, I don't know what to think. Should I be expecting something like that to happen again or should I just let this situation pass and trust that the Man loves me?

Men are confusing most of the time. They love you but you just don't see how much because they don't express themselves.. in a way that's readable for you.

After this, if this doesn't work out. I quit. I'm leaving the Philippines, I'm leaving everything here. But deep inside, I am still praying I wouldn't have to go through such pain again.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Boys Are More Confusing Than Girls

OK. We decided to give each other space so we can settle our differences. I went out with some girl friends last night and I was tired. All of a sudden, I felt his concern of my whereabouts. This morning, he sent me a message in FB and tagged me in his shout out... and lastly, he texted me again... SO what should I expect out of this? He is crazy. I don't understand why he's doing things that would hurt him. I just don't see the point. But I'm not arguing about it. I love the guy. And I so miss him...

Once and For All

Once and for all...

I want to totally feel the pain again........

The pain that killed me 3 million times in this lifetime.....

Tha pain that sucks.........................

The pain of letting go....

Here it goes again..... same old story........

Sunday, October 3, 2010

“Is There Something” by Nina

Lately I see clouds of sorrow in your eyes
Some deep sadness you can never quite disguise
Now I’m scared to ask what it’s leading to
But I’m more afraid of not asking you

Is there something that you want to tell me
Is there something that I ought to know
Are we something that’s still worth fighting for
Or should I simply let you go
Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
I’ll find some way to convince you to stay
If you just tell me honestly
Is there something left of you and me

You’ve got secrets you’ve been keeping for too long
And I’m going crazy acting like there’s nothing wrong
I can taste the truth every time we kiss
And I can’t go on
At least not like this

I don’t want to lose you
But what’s the use of holding on
I don’t really have you
If the feeling’s gone

Is there something I can do to reach you
Are we something more than history
If there’s no way to convince you to stay
And be the way we used to be
Then there’s something that I want to tell you
And I want you to believe it’s true
We had something that I’ll never forget
Even if I wanted to
‘Cause part of me will always be with you

The Break-Up Story

First time, I think we're gonna end up............. Yeah, I know I just posted about staying in my relationship and keeping it strong but let's just take it this way, RELATIONSHIPS END. No matter how har we try, it just comes to a point that one or the other doesn't want to proceed. It's painful, yes. But we can't take conrtrol of everything. Soon, once it has ended, you can just look back on what you did and what you didn't. It's called self-assessment. You study what flwas the relationship had which you weren't able to see because you are still in the relationship and there's this denial stage when you just don't want to take things that way...

WHO SAYS IT'S EASY TO LET GO? No matter how bad the relationship was, there definitely was a reason why you stayed. There was something that held you back.

WHO SAYS IT HAS TO BE PERFECT? No relationship is perfect. Even Romeo and Juliet's weren't. Even our relationship with God sometimes comes at a rocky point.

WHO WANTS TO BE HAPPY? Everyone does.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Night Out To Remember

This is a late post. Been to Republiq a club in Resorts World Manila. It was our first time there since we( Me and Kath ) often go to Taguig and Makati for gimmick. So anyway, I went there with my sister. Yep, my sister who just graduated this year. Here are the pics!!!