Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Just A Thought

In this life, I only met 4 Sagittarians. What's funny is that none of them are interested in me.

I thought the horoscope says Gemini-Sagittarius is a match made in heaven. How come they don't get attracted to me?

Hahahahaha

A Note For You

Hey You!

Do you know how long I've been waiting? I was waiting since I was 16. Talk about patience right? Anyway, I think I found you but I'm not sure if you found me yet. It's ok. No rush. Let us take our time. Enjoy life. The right time will come.

Thank you for meeting my expectations. Expectations that I have never told anybody about in the fear of being judged as "demanding". But seriously, I just want it simple: be who you are right now. That's more than enough for me.

As I wait for you to find me and realize that I am the one, I will work hard to improve myself. Maybe when I become a better person, that's the time you will realize my existence.

Let's tak our time and have fun! We are meant to be, it will happen.

Anj

Sunday, June 26, 2011

There's A Sunshine After The Rain

Today, the rain has stopped. Finally, after a week of rain, after a storm that seemed endless, the sun finally shone. I realized that my life is so much like this... I experience rain, storm... But definitely, a better day will come and I think that day begins NOW.

I should move forward and maybe start having an amnesia... Forget anything and everything about him and his bestfriend. That's the best thing I should do. I have a great life ahead of me and I should never let people like them ruin my great, happy life. It's over.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Ok

When I hear his name or see his picture, the pain and love comes back at once. It might sound stupid but as I said in my facebook status, it's hard to remove someone from your system specially if you spent all your life wonering how it feels like to be with that someone. And yes, I know for a fact that deep inside me, I haven't totally moved on yet.

Moving on does take time and this time, I think it's gonna be longer maybe until "The Right One" comes along. Right now, I am feeling like I don't want to be with anybody for now. And I don't want anybody near me as I might hurt them unintentionally.

I really don't know. When I lost "Hot Buddy" I thought that was the most painful thing I can ever imagine. He was such a gentle guy, romantic, sweet...I thought I lost a good catch simply because I didn't arrive earlier... He was engaged and I found out just months before his wedding. After around 2 months, I was ok. But now, I don't think I will be ok even after 3 months. I wanted to buy Amnesia pills if there's any so I can just simply forget. The pain is too much that I can't imagine spending more days like this. It's like all my hopes of a future with him faded in the dark and I gotta continue walking without any light or any sign on where it ends. And it's unfair because all I ever asked in this life was a family of my own by the time I reach the age of 25. I have always prayed for a man who would love me through thick and thin, who would accept me at my worst and be happy for me at my best. A guy who unerstands that women ask, expect and assume just because we are human. We have emotions and that's what we are created for. I never asked for a guy that's handsome or rich. Money can't buy happiness and good looks fade. But everytime I meet someone an fall, that person ens up being the wrong one in one way or another.

Is there someone out there who matches my description of my ideal guy? The answer to my prayers? If you are that person, please... Save me! I am so sad at the moment and if you find me, although we might have a rough start but we're gonna make it because I am a fighter and I prayed for one, too. Someone who would fight for me no matter what.

It's also not easy to be 23 and still without a long-lasting, stable relationship. I don't know but I sometimes wonder if this is just partof God's plan or I'm just being blind and I'm not seeing what I should do.

I am praying for strength to make it through. This is just one phase, one chapter of my beautiful story. How it ends is something I haven't figure out yet. I will continue writing. Once the Right One comes, I will tell everyone about it just as I've told you about what I'm going through now.

Monday, June 20, 2011

Kissing Couple


Just wanna share something I found on Yahoo! Its a pic of Vancouver's famous kissing couple.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I Can't Just Forgive and Forget

I am sorry for posting another "hate" entry in this blog. But I just want to breathe it all out simply because I just realized some points today that made me upset.

First of all, let me just say that me and my ex broke up because he didn't want to settle down. He said, he doesn't see himself ever settling down with anybody. That wasn't fair, specially for me who had been with him for almost 2 years. First, because if that is the case, then our relationship wasn't as serious as I thought. Second, it was never part of my plans to be a girlfriend forever. I am a smart woman, I dream big and I work hard. I didn't think I deserve a relationship as such. The pain of the breakup was bad. But what's even worse than losing someone is losing yourself in the process of loving someone. I wasted 2 years for nothing. I wasted my time only to realize that HE wasn't good enough for me.

I also realized that maybe, it's not just about the "committment" issue but also because he wanted to be available for other girls. In the course of the relationship, we fought over approximately 4 or 5 girls if I'm not mistaken because of messages, pictures and stories from common friends. I have never felt so jealous and insecure my whole life! I never thought that's how I will feel. No matter how confident you are about yourself, when you start feeling infidelity from your partner, you lose every single piece of you that remains strong and standing. That was how I felt. I felt insecure of my body, my face, my hair, everything about me. I thought, when you finally found Mr. Right, he's gonna make you feel so right even if you are so wrong. Only proves, he wasn't the right one after all.

Up to know, I cannot believe I lasted almost 2 years bearing the pain, insecurity and hatred towards myself, which I denied so many times just because I was inlove.

No, I can't promise to forgive and forget because honestly, as he enjoys the rain tonight, I am reminiscing the painful past. How can he be happy when I am hurting? It's gonna be unfair if he moves on quickly while I am trying so hard to redeem myself before I can fall inlove. I don't want to be unfair with anybody just because someone became unfair to me. I am inspired by someone right now but I can't take away my anger. The pain. The hatred. How can someone simply exist to hurt a heart who only wishes to love and be loved? What's even worse is that how can he take away all the beauty in me and leave me with nothing but anger to redeem myself?

It's so hard to forgive. I don't know how I can let go of this grudge. Maybe, in time. But not as soon as now...

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Green Lantern

Watched Green Lantern with my brother today. This is what I wore:


Top: Genevieve
Shorts: Pants that we decided to cut and turn into shorts (BNY)
Shoes: Figliarina

Thursday, June 16, 2011

TGIF

Happy Friday everyone! I am now at work and having breakfast in my work station. I feel so hyped up today! Maybe because I had a good night's sleep and that there are a lot of reasons to be happy on a Friday!

I am so looking forward to watching Green Lantern with my siblings tomorrow! I have to treat them for the movie and pay for pop corn and drinks because Miami Heat lost. ☻ Although I was disappointed with how LBJ played but, I am not blaming him for the loss. He's human and he's just like any other basketball player, he makes mistakes and he is in the continuous process of improving. I still ♥ LBJ. But of course, I still remain the number 1 fan of the legendary Michael Jordan and I can't wait until his son plays for NBA!

So anyway, tomorrow's gonna be a very busy day for me. I bet it'll be fun! ☺

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I Miss The Super Random Friday Night With Friends

Yeah... I miss Kath, Marky and Mark. I wish we can have another random night one of these days. It's been a long time since I saw my guy bestfriend, Marky. :( I miss the never ending conversations that kept us awake til 5am.

I also miss Kath's never ending talk about boys... awww... my super girly friend that reminds me to be a girl at all times and at all cost. hahaha

And of course, the other Mark who was just introduced to us a couple of months ago. the cool guy who is also a model. Very makulit and funny and fitted in the group just right.


I MISS YOU!!!! :(

Learning

So, how's Anj these past few days? Hmm... I just want to ask myself and realize if I'm ok, if I'm still hurt or if I've already moved on.

Dfinitely, the recent relationship I had was a whirlwind. Emotions were intense and I can say we got to the point that we were so serious, we forgot about little things that mattered to us when we first became a couple. I just hope he is fine right now and if he's dating, I just wish, he found a better girl than me.

So, going back to me. I guess I'm at the stage again when I am thankful and contented. I don't know if I'm happier alone or not but one thing is for sure, I am now looking in all directions, which is my forte. I love having options. I love new things. I love possibilities and opportunities. I love challenging myself. I love adventure and sometimes, I get bored easily with things except work. I love my job. In fact, of all things, my job now has caught the gemini in me. Other than that, I am in search of fast, constant change in my life. I don't care about the ups and downs. I am in search for knowledge and wisdom and ups and downs would be part of it.

I also want to discover myself and my destiny. I know I am not meant to have a life as stagnant as this. I know there is something better out there and I just gotta explore. I met someone recently who has almost the same ideals that I have. Not that I am already interested in him in a romantic way but let's say, he caught my interest because he is a very intellectual person who also believes in destiny. He is a hopeless romantic too and I find many things that we have in common. We will see how this goes. But definitely, this person makes me smile on a daily basis. At least, someone who talks like there's no tomorrow seems fun enough for me. :)

I am enjoying the single life. It had never been this better. I've been single several times, moved in and out of relationships but this part is the most exciting part. I am 23, I have a great career ahead of me and I am single.

ILML.

Photo-op

So, yesterday was a very surprising day for me. Actually, I always get surprised when someone I don't know adds me up in facebook or sends me a private message telling me I'm pretty or they wanted me to add them up. That resulted to me creating a second account which was open to anyone since my first account was created for people that I have worked with, relatives, officemates and friends in other words, a private account. So anyway, I have a lot of pending friend requests in my private account and I wanted to add them up but in my second account just so i can still keep my privacy and still be friendly to people who wanted to be friends with me. So, yesterday I was a bit surprised to receive a message from someone.. read below:

ANONYMOUS 3:31am Jun 15

ate anj pede add mu ko:))
plz

Anj Saura 4:24am Jun 15

Ok sure! :)

ANONYMOUS 6:39am Jun 15

thnk :)
pu2nta k rn po sa event??

Anj Saura 6:40am Jun 15

Ung sa bumper 2 bumper?

ANONYMOUS 7:00am Jun 15

yup :)

Anj Saura 7:07am Jun 15

Not sure pa eh. Haha. Naghahanap pa ako ng kasama ko. :)

ANONYMOUS 7:10am Jun 15

ayy gnun la ka ksma :)
ako nlng heheh
papicture dn ako sau ha :)
heheh

Anj Saura 7:13am Jun 15

Haha. :) sure cge just tell me when u see me. :)

ANONYMOUS 7:14am Jun 15

cge2 :)
bka my bf kna awayn ako.

Anj Saura 7:15am Jun 15

Haha. Wala naman. Teka,hindi ako car show model ha. Haha

ANONYMOUS 7:20am Jun 15

hahah
anu nmn msma b magpapic sau :)
bkt nmn wala?

Anj Saura 7:22am Jun 15

Haha. Baka lang akala mo car show model ako. Hehehe. Wala eh. Busy po ako sa work. Hehe

So anyway, the conversation was quite long but that was what surprised me. Someone wanted to have a picture with me! hahaha. Celebrity much? Hahahaha. Kidding. But I do appreciate people messaging me expressing appreciation about me. Thank you! :)

Gemini-Sagittarius II

Gemini & Sagittarius Romantic Compatibility


When Gemini and Sagittarius come together in a love affair, it can be a truly spectacular match! These two are extremely compatible; any rough spots they encounter during the course of the relationship are sure to be smoothed over with a minimum of effort. Gemini is quite able to provide pioneering, adventurous Sagittarius with the independence Sagittarius requires in a close relationship, because Gemini shares that same need. While Sagittarius needs physical independence, Gemini needs mental freedom, but the need is the same at base. These two both love new experiences, people and sensations, and are sure to have great adventures together. Both have attention spans that love to move quickly from one thing to the next in order to absorb as much experience as possible.

Gemini and Sagittarius are great friends, besides being well-matched lovers. They share a deep understanding and a very similar life view, based on a general, refreshing optimism and enthusiasm. Sagittarius can sometimes be a bit too blunt, saying things without thinking beforehand about whether they'll hurt someone or not, but Gemini is a hardy sort and, like Sagittarius, can forgive and forget quickly. These two don't have time or the interest required to hold a grudge.

Gemini is ruled by Mercury (Communication) and Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter (Luck). Mercury lends Gemini their chatty, intellectual demeanor; Jupiter is about both luck and philosophy, and lends Sagittarius their constant questing for knowledge and truth. This is a great match -- Gemini comes up with a new idea and Sagittarius jumps right on, ready to explore it to its limits.

Gemini is an Air Sign and Sagittarius is a Fire Sign. This is quite the active relationship! Air spreads Fire far and wide, helping it increase in power. Gemini and Sagittarius together have just this effect on one another. Theirs is a very fiery, passionate connection; there's always something going on. Sometimes what's going on escalates into a real argument and actually hurt feelings; these Signs are opposite one another in the Zodiac, which means they have quite a deep and complex connection. In other words, when it's good it's very, very good, but when it's bad it can be terrible. These two may fight most about who's in charge; they both have competitive streaks that can flare up at inopportune moments. The good thing is, although they may disagree often, their differences of opinion don't last long -- Gemini is too busy moving on to the next challenge to hold a grudge, and Sagittarius can forgive anything but a lack of respect from their Gemini lover.

Gemini and Sagittarius are both Mutable Signs and are thus extremely compatible. They're both flexible in the extreme, quite willing and able to adapt to change. This is a good thing; when Gemini changes their mind mid-thought, Sagittarius has no problem taking a 180-degree turn and keeping right up with their high-flying partner. When Sagittarius suddenly gets the travel bug, Gemini is very amiable about hopping in the car and going right along.

What's the best aspect of the Gemini-Sagittarius relationship? Their mutual interest in cultivating knowledge, utilizing intellect and turning it into action. They are well-matched in their enthusiasm, energy and drive. Common interests and similar personalities make them a compatible couple.

http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/compatibility/love/?sign1=gemini&sign2=sagittarius

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Gemini-Sagittarius

Gemini Woman and Sagittarius Man Compatibility
Laughingly referred to as schizophrenic-axis, this is certainly a match made in heaven. The Gemini woman captures and keeps up the interest of her Sagittarian man with such ease and comfort that it is almost funny. Moreover, both are so fascinated by what the other one is saying or doing that they will probably have no chance of looking elsewhere. The only problem for a Gemini gal is that if you want to experience the passionate love then you might as well get a Scorpio man. A Sagittarian man is more of a happy-go-lucky clown who will enjoy with you, share with you and love you like no other, but will never reveal a part of himself to you.

http://www.buzzle.com/articles/gemini-and-sagittarius-compatibility.html

A Gemini woman and Sagittarius man is about sunshine and laughter. True as it is said, this is a match made in heaven. The Gemini woman, with her mystery and independent spirit interests the Sagittarius man and holds that interest forever. The two will be smitten by each other’s wit and deeds so much that there is no need of any other person to keep them company.

http://zodiacfacts.blogspot.com/2011/03/gemini-and-sagittarius-pros-and-cons.html

Sagittarius and Gemini love compatibility
These two are opposites in the zodiac and are attracted to each other like magnets. They are both tireless, changeable and not frank enough as lovers. Gemini are inclined to criticize the Sagittarius' behavior in bed. They may be disappointed sexually, since neither is demonstrative-and Gemini is very quick to criticize. There are also some other weak points in their relationships while the strength is that they are both undemanding people. Their affair will probably begin impulsively and will be finished suddenly as well. The marriage can turn out to be quite good but it will require efforts from both of them.

http://www.gotohoroscope.com/sagittarius-compatibility.html

Question is... Where can I find this perfect match. I'm a gemini.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Just Sharing




--- Just sharing Isa's wisdom. Very TRUE.

Last Friday Night - Katy Perry

There's a stranger in my bed,
There's a pounding my head
Glitter all over the room
Pink flamingos in the pool
I smell like a minibar
DJ's passed out in the yard
Barbie's on the barbeque

There's a hickie or a bruise
Pictures of last night
Eended up online
I'm screwed
Oh well
It's a black top blur
But I'm pretty sure it ruled

Last Friday night
Yeah we danced on tabletops
And we took too many shots
Think we kissed but I forgot

Last Friday night
Yeah we maxed our credit cards
And got kicked out of the bar
So we hit the boulevard

Last Friday night
We went streaking in the park
Skinny dipping in the dark
Then had a menage a trois
Last Friday night
Yeah I think we broke the law
Always say we're gonna stop-op
Whoa-oh-oah

This Friday night
Do it all again
This Friday night
Do it all again

Trying to connect the dots
Don't know what to tell my boss
Think the city towed my car
Chandelier is on the floor
With my favorite party dress
Warrants out for my arrest
Think I need a ginger ale
That was such an epic fail

Pictures of last night
Ended up online
I'm screwed
Oh well
It's a blacked out blur
But I'm pretty sure it ruled
Katy Perry Last Friday Night lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/katy-perry-last-friday-night-lyrics.html

Damn

Last Friday night
Yeah we danced on table tops
And we took too many shots
Think we kissed but I forgot

Last Friday night
Yeah we maxed our credits card
And got kicked out of the bars
So we hit the boulevards

Last Friday night
We went streaking in the park
Skinny dipping int he dark
Then had a menage a trois
Yeah I think we broke the law
Always say we're gonna stop-op
Oh whoa oh

This Friday night
Do it all again
Do it all again
This Friday night
Do it all again
Do it all again
This Friday night

T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.
T.G.I.F.

Last Friday night
Yeah we danced on table tops
And we took too many shots
Think we kissed but I forgot

Last Friday night
Yeah we maxed our credit cards
And got kicked out of the bar
So we hit the boulevard

Last Friday night
We went streaking in the park
Skinny dipping in the dark
Then had a menage a trois

Last Friday night
Yeah I think we broke the law
Always say we're gonna stop
Oh-whoa-oh
This Friday night
Do it all again

Sunday, June 12, 2011

You Should Date ( from everyday-isa. com )

I was browsing through twitter when I saw a blog entry's link twitted by jascurtissmith. I got curious about it and when I checked, this is what I found:

My good friend, Den, suggested that I blog and write down all the reasons why I think guys should date me. It’s a promising topic (because I really believe that I’m date-able!) but right now, something that I think bears more weight is: The Kind of Person I Want YOU to Date.

I don’t know who you are but I want great things for you. I want you to have romance and committed love and something real. Something that lasts. That’s really hard to come by these days but I want that for you and I want that for me, too. Here are some of the things I wish I could tell my future children about love. To be honest, I don’t know if I’m ever going to get married and have kids but that’s okay. I’ll pass these things on to you instead. You, my friend, are worthy of great, authentic love.

Please never settle.

Love,

Isa

***

The person I want you to date exists and I want you to wait it out until you meet them. Because, in case you haven’t yet, you will. Waiting is for the brave – it means watching years pass, noticing yourself growing older and sitting through wedding after wedding after wedding. It means bottling that slow-rising fear. It means questioning your standards and running the risk of settling.

I wish someone had told me that the person I was meant to be with was a real actual living person, breathing in some part of the world and waiting, too. I did not believe in romantic destiny so I projected all my hopes into the wrong people and tried desperately to make these wrong people right. In the end, no one won and the aftermath was a combination of devastating grief, self-loathing and crippling regret. I do not want that for you.

Wait.

The person I want you to date might be making morning coffee right now or sleeping through a thunderstorm or getting a degree in Physics. Wait. I mean it. Every other person will be a cheap imitation of the real thing.

The person I want you to date believes in big things. This person has a passion and pursues it with a hunger that could set the world on fire. This person believes in setting goals and making them happen. Trust me: you will never regret being with someone who is madly in love with their purpose in life. When you meet this person — this unstoppable ball of good fury — I want you to have a vision of your own. A goal you can shape your life around. I want you to have a desire to change the world, whatever pocket of it you belong to. You can’t be stagnant when the person you’re with is active and dynamic. Life is a grand celebration of doing great things that matter and you (yes, you) play a huge part in all of it.

The person I want you to date has character. When you’re young, all you’re looking for is personality. Charm. Compatibility in music and book taste and food preferences. I think these are all well and good but character is what sustains a relationship when all of these things change. Personality is ever-evolving, character grows and amplifies in time. Character is when a person does beautiful things without seeking credit. It’s when someone doesn’t quit — even if every fiber of their being begs them to. It’s the ability of someone to graciously expend back-breaking heart-wrenching love to someone who has disappointed and failed them. Character is that beautiful thing that gets molded over time and experience. Be someone with character and never settle for someone without it.

The person I want you to date will be into you. Really, really into you. There will be no need for pointless mind games, no room for even the slightest bit of emotional confusion. The person I want you to date will be crystal clear about their intentions towards you. They will not win you over with sweet nothings or romantic gestures. Their love will be bigger than the superficial trappings of courtship. The person I want you to date will take the time to get to know you. They will see everything there is to love about you and they will look at the core of all the bad stuff and not balk. They will not run at the first sign of ugliness. Instead, they will love you through it.

I want you to know that the person I want you to date will fail you. Give them the grace to be human. (You are one, too.) Don’t listen to those stupid quotes that tell you that the person who loves you will never make you cry. I want you to realistically approach this thing we call human relationships. Hurting one another is part of the messy dynamics of getting close to someone. But the person I want you to date is a person who knows how to resolve conflict especially when it blows up in both your faces. Their ego will never be too big to own up to their mistakes.

And when it comes to their love for you, YOU WILL KNOW. Their love will be the most painfully obvious thing in the world that though you will come to question many, many things in life, you will never — not even once — question them.

And you know what? They will believe in you so much that you will never feel compelled to question yourself. You will put all your insecurities to rest because the person I want you to date will, more than anything, make you feel that you matter. Always. And you know why? Because you do.

I’m sure it sounds like a long shot but what if you dared to believe that the person I want you to date is real? Love is greater than cynicism and this is what I believe — yes, me, the last single girl in the world: While some people think this all sounds too good to be true, there is a God who is out to give us things that are much too good to be false.

Believe. Don’t settle. And in the meantime: become the person that the person you’re looking for is looking for.
______________________________
After reading this, I became inspired of the idea that there is really someone out there who needs me the way I need him. Someone who has the same prayer as I do which is for us to find each other. It might be a hopeless romantic idea, but I believe.

**Original Entry: http://everyday-isa.com/2011/06/06/you-should-date/

Check out the blog. :)

Friday, June 10, 2011

100 Things About Me That You Didn't Know

1. I was a feature writer for our school sentinel back in grade 6.

2. I was a consistent honor student. I was 4th in Preparatory, 6th back in grade 6 and I was 2nd honorable mention back in high school.

3. I was a Dean's lister/scholar back in college.

4. I used to be a very shy girl but people interpreted it as being a snob.

5. My eyes are brown.

6. I have always been fascinated about the idea of writing journals thus, when online blogs started, I created one for myself.

7. One thing I love doing is writing poems.

8. When I started working for Call Centers, I didn't know how to use a computer.

9. One of my adventures back in college was skipping NSTP class and go biking with some classmates at baywalk.

10. I love chicken adobo and chicken curry.

11. The only veggies I eat are broccoli, cauliflower, squash, beans, carrots and lettuce.

12. My all-time favorite color is red.

13. I'm a daydreamer.

14. I have a little scar in my palm because of a firecracker accident when I was young.

15. I am starting to have grey hair in as early as my age now, 23.

16. I'm not so fond of putting makeup. I just do it when I have to.

17. My dream car is a porsche.

18. I love talking to people. It's like reading different sets of biographies.

19. I don't like arguing with people so tendency is, when you say something, I just shut up.

20. I love buying shoes.But I only get to use very few pairs.

21. I have fear of blood.

22. I love kids.

23. I love singing sad songs even if I'm a happy person.

24. I know how to play the flute. In fact, that's the only instrument I can play.

25. I'm a die-hard fan of gossip girl and any girly show.

26. The only action movies I can watch are those starring Angelina Jolie.

27. I love my zodiac sign : Gemini.

28. I can't leave the house without a blush on.

29. I have a thick, wavy hair. Thanks to rebonding technology my hair issue was resolved.

30. I am a fan of Kim Kardashian.

31. I love watching romance movies like The Notebook, A Walk To Remember, Time Traveller's Wife, P.S. I Love You, The Wedding Singer, Eat,Pray,Love, Sweet November, One More Chance, My Amnesia Girl, I Love You Goodbye, etc.

32. My voice range is Alto.

33. I wanted to play the guitar but I can't.

34. I'm a frustrated beauty queen.

35. I have never failed a job interview since I decided I wanted to have a job.

36. I'm a 100% go-getter with anything ( Work, Boys, Grades, everything )

37. I believe in the power of the mind. Whatever you think of comes true as long as you put concentration/focus on it.

38. I love chocolates. Good thing I don't get pimples from eating them.

39. My Dad was a Lawyer born in Bicol who took the bar exams only once. He's a really smart guy and I must've inherited that.

40. I wanted to be a Lawyer when I was young but when I started working I realized, I wanted to be part of the Human Resources Department and so I landed my job now.

41. My all-time favorite fashion pieces are my Gold Pumps and skinny jeans.

42. I am allergic to perfumes/colognes.

43. I have been looking for a nice red bag and shoes forever. Does anybody know where I can get the perfect red stuff that I want?

44. I don't usually wear lipstick as my lips are already pink specially when the weather is cold.

45. Between Heat and Mavs, I'm with Heat. Between Lakers and Celtics, I'm with Lakers.

46. My all-time favorite basketball player is Michael Jordan.

47. When I was young, I was a fan of the Spice Girls, Steps, The Corrs, Backstreet Boys and Boyzone.

48. I can be a good friend but a really mean enemy because I don't forgive betrayal.

49. I have very few friends but I am 100% sure they are worth my friendship.

50. I dream of a beach wedding with very limited guests.

51. I wanna experience being part of a social welfare group.

52. My First Crushes in school were Voltaire then Raymond Ang who were both classmates of mine in Kostka.

53. I was so ugly between grade 6-3rd year high school. Those were the days...

54. I did have pimples back when I was first year high school then it disappeared in time. No marks on the face.

55. I rarely eat pork and beef.

56. I love chicken isaw.

57. Of all car show models, I wanted to become the sister of Gwyneth Ceridwen. She looks like a really cool "Ate" ( older sister ).

58. I get so impressed with smart guys, nerd or not as long as they are smart.

59. My weakness would be a conservative, loyal, honest man who has a strong personality and can give me direction as I tend to lose focus at times.

60. I am more comfortable around older guys. They are wiser and more gentle.

61. I am more comfortable hanging out with people who laugh easily.

62. It's easy to make me laugh.

63. Most of my friends are people whom are snobbish just like me. I guess, that's what we have in common.

64. I am sometimes tactless.

65. It is my dream to travel in and out of the country.

66. I am a Filipina with Japanese and Russian blood.

67. I thought I wasn't good in Math but when I see my grades, I come to think I might be good at it. It's just that it wasn't my favorite subject.

68. I received a grade of 98 in my report card in Chemistry. Take note, that was a high grade compared to the usual grades being given in public schools. And when I got that grade, I wasn't even running for Valedictorian.

69. I'm a wide reader. I read magazines, books and even wikipedia.

70. I wanna learn a lot of languages. Part of my list would be Spanish, Nihonggo and Mandarin.

71. I can't live without music.

72. If I were to be stranded in an Island, I'd be able to survive as long as I have my Blackberry, a pen and notebook, a good book, cookies, milk and earphones.

73. Another weakness: swimmers. I am so impressed with guys who can swim as I am not so good at it. I can swim like a dog though. :)

74. I so love riding horses even if that means I'll hurt my butt.

75. I've been riding horses since I was a little girl.

76. I'm fond of city lights.

77. My dream date: On top of a building where I can see the city lights. Roses. wine and a guy who's smart enough to keep the conversation going.

78. My favorite body part... lips. But, I love my entire face.

79. Favorite male body part: Eyes. Small to medium eyes. NO LARGE BULKY EYES unless he looks really good with it.

80. I don't like guys with too much muscles. A Boy-next-door type would be great.

81. A lot people told me I look like Toni Gonzaga/Abby Tereza( Dimsum )

82. I am so poor in drawing.

83. I love reading the greek mythology.

84. I am fond of vamipre stories and witch craft.

85. I have faith in God but not the church.

86. My first ever job was in a Call Center.

87. I took a shot in modelling when I was 18.

88. I was never a muse in class.

89. I used to have a bob haircut with bangs or a short layered hair. I just had long hair when I started working.

90. I love shopping. Every girl does. But, when I go to the mall, I usually have an idea already of what I want to buy so I'm the type who doesn't spend long hours shopping.

91. I have a lot of guy friends that sometimes, I can't identify if a guy likes me as a friend or as a potential girlfriend until he tells me.

92. I can bake butterscotch brownies.

93. My favorite magazine is Preview Mag.

94. I follow the blogs of Laureen Uy, Kryz Uy, Camille Co and Daryl Chang

95. I was a spoiled brat until my Dad died.

96. I love eating gummy bears.

97. I can eat pasta all year round.

98. I've enrolled in the gym only once in my entire life.

99. I was so thin before that I never thought I'd gain as much weight as I've gained now.

100. My number one priority is to make my family happy even if it I am a bit stubborn sometimes.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Someone Like You -- Adele

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,


[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/someone-like-you-lyrics-adele.html ]

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

This is a bittersweet song... I cried the first time I heard it. I never thought someone my age would experience something like this. I read Adele's profile and it turns out she was born the same year and month that I was. And this song was based on her experience.

Adele has said that it was written on her acoustic guitar, quickly, in the wake of the break-up of her 18 month relationship with the 30-year old man she thought she would marry. A few months after their split, he had got engaged to someone else. "We were so intense I thought we would get married. But that was something he never wanted ...So when I found out he does want that with someone else, it was just the horrible-est feeling ever. But after I wrote it, I felt more at peace. It set me free ... I didn't think it would resonate ... with the world! I'm never gonna write a song like that again. I think that's the song I'll be known for."[9] She also said that "I wrote that song on the end of my bed. I had a cold. I was waiting for my bath to run. I'd found out that he'd got engaged."[10] -- Wikipedia http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Someone_Like_You_(Adele_song)

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Deleted Pictures

So, he already deleted our pictures from his facebook account. It was fine... I guess. That only means he has moved on. I don't have any control of that. All I can do now is to contunue moving on.. for myself. I still care but I gotta move on seeing that chances of getting back together gets little by little everyday.

Papa's Graduation



Happy Monday!

Today, I SMILE. ♥♥♥

What I Love About Myself Now

Going through a breakup is like opening a new book with "Me" as the title. Yes, it's all about ME. What I want and what I mean. Every break up I had gone through made me who I am today. A fighter, a believer and a woman. Tonight, I will go through things that I love about myself.

1. I am not a patient person.I am very ill-tempered which only means YOU as a guy should not mess up with me.
2. I am never late. I arrive on time so YOU as a guy should not be late as well. I don't like my time being wasted.
3. I love shopping. I am a girl. Understand the need to be pretty.
4. I work hard and party hard. 5. I have my opinion on things. Don't try to change that.
6. I defy destiny. I am willing to fight for you no matter what it takes as long as you will fight for me too.
7. I ont fear rejection. I've been rejected so many times in my life. I'm immune with it.
8. I don't fall inlove. I fall madly, deeply inlove.
9. I don't regret caring. If I care for you, I will show you. Doesn't matter what you think about me.
10.I value little conversations, cuddling and simple gestures. Things that can't be bought. I don't ask for material gifts. I just want to feel like I'm VIP in your life.
11. I value effort. I don't forget good things.
12. I ask. Yes, I love asking questions about what you are thinking. I just want transparency.
13. I have faith in myself, in you an in God.
14. I have a life. With or without you, I have a life to live. It's fast-paced so you have to catch up.
15. I am exciting. That means I don't like being bored.

These are just small things that I love about myself. If you can't put up with these, then you can't be a part of my life.

3rd Successful Day!

This is the third day that I had gone through not texting him. WOW. I have to commend myself for a job well done. I finally found the strength to accept that we have ended. In fact, today is the first day I had fun without thinking about him. Surely, I will be able to move on soon enough.

I don't know if I am doing the wrong thing but I admit. I am crushing on someone right now. He is a very intellectual man who has sense of humor. He is a hopeless romantic just like me and he is a very nice guy who makes me laugh while I was crying over my ex. Honestly speaking, I didn't expect it to be this soon. But the guy is so attractive because he meets my intellect. He tells me things that I've never heard from other people and he has the ability to listen. It's like he knows exactly what to say after I say what's on my mind. I don't have any intentions of getting in a relationship anytime soon but if I were to get in a relationship, I guess this guy could be it. He could be the ONE. Haha!

He inspired me. I was listening to songs and it was his face that I was seeing. I am slowly forgetting the pain that my ex caused me. It just feels AH.MAY.ZING.

I don't want to feel guilty allowing myself to be happy or inspired. For all I know, my ex oesnt care. He said I can do what I want. He didn't bother to ask how I am, so why bother thinking about him.

Don't judge me. I just wanted to be happy.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

My 2nd Successful Day

So, today I wanted to celebrate. First, it was my step dad's graduation and second, I survived my second day being Mark-free.

I thought it was going to be hard but now that I did it flawlessly, I felt proud of myself. I realized what strong woman I am to overcome such pain. It was tough. Nobody can tell me it was easy because they haven't gone through the path that I went through. I was in pain for almost 2 months and I never thought this beautiful day would ever come.

How it started? I was talking to a nice guy the other day. He told me that love is like death, you'll never know when it will come. I realized that he was right. The love of my life could just be around the corner waiting for the right moment to talk to me and build a lasting relationship with me. The nice guy also told me that a bad relationship is as bad for the heart as a smoking habit. It's true and that is the reason why we broke up.. We already have an unhealthy and unhappy relationship. I decided to write down the things about our relationship that hurted me the most but was never at any point, resolved:

1. His bestfriend Haziel.
2. Other girls that were being linked to him in the office.
3. He doesn't like kids.
4. He doesn't want to get married.
5. He has the freedom to be surrounded by girls while I don't.
6. He is stubborn. He thinks highly of himself that sometimes, he ends up hurting me.
7. He acted like a total jerk after the breakup.

So, after realizing those, I felt it wasn't right to love him anymore. Plus the fact that other guys had been wanting to court me since we broke up. So, I texted him and asked if I can already allow guys to court me. He said yes and that he won't get jealous. I decided to text him once and for all. I told him how bad he made me feel when he doesn't reply when I text him. He didn't even bother to ask how I am. I told him all the things he did that upset me. I finally gave up! At long last, I had the feeling that I'm ok already. He didn't say a thing after I said those to him. Maybe he thought I would text him and say I was sorry, just like what I used to do. But now, it's been two days and I didn't bother to text him at all. You know why? Because it's not gonna be worth it! He's goal is not to make me happy and change my point of view on men. His goal was to make himself happy and then dump me because he won't need me anymore.

I am happy I had the chance to talk to nice guy. He inspired me. Now, next thing I gotta worry about: falling inlove again. I haven't given up yet! There's definitely someone out there for me. :)

Friday, June 3, 2011

Before and After




MY GOAL: GET THAT SIZZLING BODY BACK

Just A Dream

One day, he will be singing this to me:

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.


I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.


Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.




My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.




I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.




When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?




Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.
Nelly Just A Dream lyrics found on
http://the-latest-music-online.blogspot.com/2010/11/nelly-just-dream-lyrics.html




Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.




I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.




And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.




If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.




I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.




And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Saisaki

Last night was bonding night for me and my friends in the office. We have been teasing Eloisa about treating us there for quite sometime now because she's got so many placements. Luckily, Ate Kat offered to share an amount for teh treat since she also got her placement fee. So, Me, Chee, RC, El and Ate Kate went to Saisaki/ Dad's for dinner.

We were on a strict diet for weeks now and seeing really appetizing food in front of me made me want to cut my diet. Sushi, Tempura and desserts everywhere! I didn't get rice but I had a lot of tempura, squid, crabsticks and sushi in my plate! Plus, I got bottomless ice tea which comes with a plush soccer ball! Cute!

Here are some pictures from the dinner ♥♥♥

With Our Plush Balls
The Ex-lovers rekindling the past ♥
The Acoustic band that sang Just The Way You Are, Born This Way and You Belong With Me to us

... And the desserts!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

When The Going Gets Tough, GO SHOPPING!

So, yesterday wasn't a perfect day. I tried my best not to text "him" and I made a mistake at work which made my boss upset. So, I went out with my Mom and sister after work to release stress and bought shoes for me and my sister. We got 3 pairs and spent 1800 pesos for those cute shoesies. Not bad.

Black shoes from Janeo at 699.00

Purple shoes from Figliarina at a discounted price, got them at 499.00

I was happy with what I purchased. In fact, I am wearing the black one right now. :) Looking forward to wearing the purple shoes on Saturday for my step dad's graduation in his Cost-Engineering Seminar. :)

** I wasn't able to take pics of my sister's shoes. I will do that tonight when I get home. :)

My May-December Love Affair

May-December Love Affair


I'm proud of you... I don't know why I'm staying this long despite the fact that we already ended the relationship but as much as I wanted to go, I can't because I have mastered the art of loving you unconditionally. I'm never a masochist and I'm not an easy girl. I'm just inlove. please understand.