Saturday, March 31, 2012

Purpose

What's my purpose on earth? Why am I still alive? Am I here to do something for someone?

Life Changing. Yes, that is my purpose. Not that it had been my choice... But I know for a fact that it is a task I must fulfill while I am here. Everyday, I meet people and get the chance to talk to them. For some reason, people feel comfortable talking to me. I guess, through that, one of my prayers are being answered. I want to be able to change someone's life. Until now, that something that my heart desires.

Recently, I have been spending time talking to Mr. Anonymous about his burdens, worries, stress...his life. I really appreciate the fact that he opened up since he seemed to be a pretty hard case to crack. Anyway, everyday, I've been really happy listening to him and trying to cheer him up and tell him how great this life is. Although, of course, I haven't told him much about myself since I like to keep my privacy on things that really matter to me. But right now, I am really hoping that I am able to help this person in my simple way. Let God guide me on this journey.

In God's Perfect Time

Lately, I've been wondering so much about my life and what's going on around me. Yes, I have questions... Mostly are unanswered. I guess that's just how it is.

Sometimes, I have been thinking so much about why I'm not getting things that I want or things that I have been praying for, for a long time now. Sometimes, I ask why I have been so faithful and trusting to God and I see those who have done me wrong getting more than what I have or more than what they deserve. I do not understand and I end up having headaches and tiring days plus sleepless nights wondering.

I spoke to Mom yesterday. I told her my frustrations the past few weeks. I also opened up with Jackie and that brought me to tears. The realization that some things went opposite of how you wanted them to go. It is very tiring to live sometimes. Right now, I am only holding on to God's promise that He has plans for me. In His perfect time, I will receive what I have prayed for.

I'm a Believer of LOVE


Thursday, March 15, 2012

If We Ever Meet Again...

You know that feeling when someone special has flown away. At this very moment, that person is up there.. on a plane flying somewhere and you don’t know when or if you’ll see that person again.

It’s not the best feeling when you know you are holding back your tears from falling each time you are reminded of the laughter and the great times. It’s not an easy task being the one who’s left to wait—for God knows how long.

You want to have a good time but you start to realize that good times are supposed to be shared with that person only. And not even commitment can define that. Not even loyalty or faithfulness. It could be love which combines all emotions that are undefinable. But probably, it will hurt if it is love. For love brings the sweetest of all things, both joy and pain.

It’s very rare to experience that kind of spark with one person. Like you move on for months, or so you thought. But when you see the person, the spark comes out again, like it was never lost. In fact, it became more sparkling, more warm… more bright than how it was before.

All the mixed emotions of fear that he might not come back or that he might find a home in someone else’s arms, the feeling of hope that maybe you have left a mark on that person’s life and a feeling of thrill if you’ll ever meet again.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

The End

Last night marked THE END of it. After a year, my prayer was answered. I wouldn't want to go into details about what happened. But I guess, it's for the better.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Unofficially Yours?

I watched the movie "Unofficially Yours" starring Angel Locsin and John Lloyd Cruz. Somehow, I can well relate to the story since I have experienced a No Committment relationship in the past. And yes, true enough, one or the other gets hurt.

One more thing I liked about the movie is that it made me realize that relationships might not work because there is someone out there who is made just for you. Who will show you what true love is. Yes, not having committment gives you the assurance that you won't have to be responsible of your "partner's" heart. Not having a committment means being single while having someone in your life as well. But then there will come a time when all you would want is someone who can give you the assurance that he loves you.

Oh.. this post is a waste. Hate talking about this. hahahaha.

ILML.