Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Tagalog

Sabi nga nila pagmagmahal ka, dapat handa ka masaktan. Handa kang umiyak. Handa ka sa lahat, masaya man o masakit. Parte yan eh. Hindi pwedeng one sided. 

Takot ako makaramdam. Baka kasi kagaya ng paulit ulit na nangyayari saken, baka mali na naman. Hindi din naman kasi ako yung tipo na nakakahanap agad ng kapalit. Pagnagmahal kasi ako, buo palagi kahit hindi ko aminin. Anong magagawa ko kung hopeless romantic ako na naniniwala sa long and lasting love. Hindi ko alam pero sa ngayon nakakaramdam ako ng takot na baka mawala ulit to... Siya... Handa ba akong pakawalan yung nagpapasaya saken kung sakaling kailangan kong pakawalan? (Itutuloy)

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Difficult

Can I still do this? Is this my limit? I am trying to go through phases and hoping that at the end, I will make it out alive. 

Like a patient in the operating room, I do not know if the process will be successful. I can only hold on to my faith that I ended up in this hospital bed for a reason. To learn, to renew myself and to appreciate once again what life's trials are for. I do not know how this will end. If I will emerge as a better product of pain, sweeter than itself or if I will end up ruined.

Asking God about His plan is all that I have in mind. Telling him to paint me a picture until I see it come to life! I am a waste. Nevertheless, I never stopped believing I have worth. If worth does have its true meaning, I should say.

Life is strange and all I can do is live, hope and pray.